"With Everything, I Won't Let This Go"

How.

How in the world is it that I have found the missing part of me?

The cliche'd puzzle piece whose hands fit perfectly with mine,

with eyes like a sunset I'll never live to forget & lips that take me to a place where all I could dream is what is real.

His voice sings through my very soul,

following each riff & rythmn of my heart & unsteady breathing without fail.

The romanticism within me has met its match.

Even when there are no words,

I blush.

I swoon, attempt & fail to find my footing because he has swept me off my feet. Truly.

He is everything and nothing I was looking for.

Even alone & asleep, I'm lost in those eyes.

The first sunset we ever watched together,

forever in his eyes.

Hwy 25, Thursday night, I fell.

I fell in love.

The most precious love I've ever felt for the most perfect person on Earth.

"With Everything, I Won't Let This Go"

8-26-2011 Samantha Weldon

"Shining, Shimmering, Splendid"

A flirt.

/swoon.

Holding in the squeals your cute little remarks induce,

holding fast to the floor--

holding my hopes within the treetops,

Throwing caution to your smile,

& keeping my hands behind my back.

But the problem with holding my hopes is that you are encouraging them to take off into the stars that I find in your eyes when you smile.

A new galaxy witin your mind that seems to be so similar to mine.

So close that I can read your seemingly alien languages as if reading a novel.

You--& your spirit.

/feeling alive. within a text message.

Instability, impracticality, & everything about life that I have come to secretly relish against the words of my mentors--

that is what youa re.

With hopes flying & my heart falling at the speed of light,

you're tearing me apart in the best way possible--

& I haven't really met you yet.

/alive.

Not only breathing, but feeling everything & nothing at the same time.

Inspiration that I've been searching for like pure water during a drought.

life anew.

Thank you.

8-25-2011 Samantha Weldon

"Daddy's little girl, paints the world with her magic wand"

3:29am 8.7.2011

Growing up,

I'm nothing like I used to be,

& yet I'm exactly the same as you remembered me.

I smile,

put on my make-up,

& wear that perfume you got me when I was young, Daddy.

I go around like th world is mine,

& life is perfect.

You always thought I did alright on my own.

I cut my hair,

I look just like you,

& I'm nothing like you OR my mother.

I'm happy.

No matter what, I will always be happy, Dad.

Your little girl wears that perfume like it's Chanel no. 5,

keeps her chin up,

& is going to be everything she ever dreams up to be.

Your little girl is growing up,

Just so you know.

She's not afraid to admit she's your daughter,

because she's already overcome your reputation.

She loves you.

She misses you.

She holds her head high & is waiting for the day you speak up.

She wants you to be there to give her away one day, despite everything.

You're my father.

I want my "Daddy" back.

I want you to be proud of me, & let me know it.

'till then, I hope you've learned how to be happy, too.

Love you Daddy.

3:43am

Samantha Weldon

The Shearing Piano

7.26.11 1:00pm

The day after.

I feel despicable.

I stole your laughter, the lights that shone through your eyes when you smiled.

I've taken everything that was good and focused it away from myself.

I am not mistaken.

I know what I did was right,

One day you will, too.

You'll see that we shared our first love.

That I will be a memory very dear to you when you think of me.

Think of me as free as you wish me to be.

You taught me how to fly,

and now I'm soaring,

so high that no-one can catch me.

I'm out in space,

becoming the star you knew I would be.

I want to be that one you see & just smile fondly up at me.

You had every piece of me.

I loved you.

Think of me when you hear jazz music. find me in those slippery licks & remember nights shared,

the way I danced,

& the way you loved me.

Forever in my heart, you will always be.

-Samantha Weldon

1:08pm

To Get Things Started

I'm Samantha. This is a blog solely for my writings out of my Moleskine notebook (aka, my brain that I carry everywhere). It is uncensored, and un-edited. I will not mute my feelings, and if they hurt yours, well, you chose to read it. Thanks for reading, I hope you find something to enjoy here.

To clue you in a bit, most of the titles of my posts will be whatever song is stuck in my head at the moment. the time of day when I wrote it will usually be included.