Summer Forever

2:05pm 02/06/12
I'm the kind of girl who avoids all things safe and sound.
I've been playing in traffic it seems for years now,
My bare feet rubbed raw against the hot black asphalt,
The sultry, sweet, Arkansas air sticks to my tongue as I laugh and dance through oncoming cars,
Making each lane my stage and you are my crowd to please.
Most of all I adore the summer showers,
They thunder and shout with rage at the dry earth,
They flood the ground, fill my eyes, & soak my skin--
My clothes cling to my tanned sides,
And it seems that it is then that I catch your eyes.
My dress is just another layer,
I become an instrument,
& you are my player.
I change my dance to your cadence,
& you make me yours as the night hastens,
Sparks fly between our lips like fireflies in the sky turning to dusk,
Our hearts beat in company with the chirping crickets around us,
Providing percussion to the summer symphony that has enveloped every part.of you & me.
& hands down,
You have been the first to truly ensnare me,
You make my heart flutter,
My eyes dart,
& my hands clutch to yours--
Because besides this familiar heat,
That grasp reminds me that I'm finally not dreaming.
I'm awake, alive, & in your arms.
I feel as if i can breathe easily,
Because for the first time in awhile,
I'm not letting go of the trust I've given with my smile.
I'm starting to believe that something real has finally come to me.
You make me forget my heart was ever broken.
You make it okay,
Because you see I love as fierce as the sun,
& it seems like you want to be my one.
The thought of you makes me forget to rhyme.
It's kind of cute.
I hope that you think.of me as your summer breeze,
Warm and inviting,
Never harsh and bitter,
But yours for however long you choose to enjoy it.
& if i could control the weather,
You'd be my summer forever.
-Samantha Weldon 2:24pm
Here's to what's to come

Because I was watching Smoke.

Baby, you were just like my Swisher Sweets.
Take a drag to feel good--
then leave me lost in the streets,
with nothing but a forever-burning addiction between my fingertips.

Your sickening sweetness simply consumed me--
I could feel you burning in my lungs,
yet you cooled my blood,
& slowed my aching heart.
Your eyes were so loving,
and so misleading,
because You became my everything,
my every-day,
my only way,

Then You disappeared, Just like the smoke in the September air::
Beautifully detached,
wisping away with each exhale that escapes my lips,
eventually causing me to gasp for oxygen,
to break in to coughing fits to rid my body of your poison--
Your sweet, wine-flavored, cyanide kiss that tempts my lips when you catch me breathing too easily.

& though you're gone,
the memory remains like tar in my lungs;
You're on my mind,
there's smoke on my breath,
& all I've got now are a few ashes.

Your hat, t-shirt, a few words, & a defective dreamcatcher.

That's the thing with ashes though, hold them too close, & all you've got are dirty hands.

So I'll blow your mess off my bed,
I'll never forget the words you said,
I'll be careful not to crush any of your poison dust--
& You'll be swept away,
to never return.

& I'll keep my Swisher, Love.
You keep your feel-good-drag,
& 5 months later, I'll be just fine,
watching the air rid me of what once was mine.

1/13/2012

"How do I live?"

12:45am 11-14-11

Every night I close my eyes

&

I

shudder.

Thoughts of you flood my brain.

They bind my eyelids shut

to face the empty space inside

that you left when you said "Goodbye".

I'm fucking scared to fucking death.

You don't even speak to me anymore.

You left because you couldn't give me

everything--

& now I can't find the courage

to take my everything back,

much less give it to someone

else because you had it all.

You have every piece of me that

I was afraid to give,

& I don't know how to

get them back.

You were my first,

my best,

& my worst.

Never have I cried the way I did over you.

Never have I lied the way I did for you.

Never have I ever felt so betrayed.

"It's over, and we're friends :)"

Friends talk.

They care.

You don't.

You built up every dream I could imagine

between us,

You showed me the life I wanted to live

...with you.

Then you tore my dream masterpiece

down--

We were surrounded by the walls of

past, future, love & sex.

We were present.

intimate.

the everything you couldn't give,

& the everything I'll never get back.

Tell me how I'm supposed to forget.

Tell me how to breathe like our

lips never touched,

& that we never fell in love.

Tell me how I give my 100% to

someone else when I left it

in your bedroom?

I miss you.

& I probably don't even cross your mind.

Give me back, please.

-Samantha Weldon 12:58am

You Are My One.

Baby,

wouldn't it be easy to just lay here?

Together in this solace,

where the only vital signs we need

to follow are the breaths we take--

in this winter air,

I'll follow your foggy sigh to the darkest place

on earth,

If I could just have you.

& Baby,

You're perfect in every way I couldn't imagine,

with eyes like a sunrise I've dreamed of for years,

Your smile quite simply erased my fears,

& you are all I need in this cool winter breeze.

Your arms warm my heart with the feeling of belonging,

To you my dear, I'll be singing softly--

A love that we didn't expect,

has burst through our lips & straight into our chests,

Two unlikely hearts beating as one, because baby,

You are my one.

& Don't let my words go to waste,

We're falling faster every day,

with your hands holding mine,

I'll be yours 'till the end of time.

& Don't make our song a secret,

we're the love story no-one's heard yet,

A perfect scene within a dream,

The world is aching to hear us sing.

You are my one and only,

oh--my one and only,

You are my one and only,

You are my one.

& Don't let my words go to waste,

Bring me a kiss so I won't forget the taste,

of your sweet lips loving mine,

I'll be yours 'till the end of time.

& Don't make our song a secret,

We're the words that no-one's sung yet,

The world is spinning all too fast,

Let's just make this moment last.

You are my one and only,

oh--my one and only,

You are my one and only,

You are my one. (x2, etc.)

Oh darling, you are my one.

-Samantha Weldon

Attempt at song-writing :P

"It's just a life, we'll Dance & Dance"`

10-17-11 11:14am

I'm not crazy,

although my heart goes a little wild at

the sound of your laugh,

the light in your eyes is the

kind of sunset that I first

saw with you,

mixed with the small gleam of

Andromeda,

when your mind is far above

my two feet

on this Earth,

where we always meet.

All the while, I waltz about empty streets &

my limbs sing lithe lyrics

of the way my life has

changed,

& how lucky I am that you

love(d) me.

I'm constantly on pointe around you,

taking steps in relevea,

inch by inch to make sure my

words don't overstep any boundaries,

& so even though I'm on my toes,

I might still be beautiful to you.

I may risk a pas-de-chat,

& I saute past my feelings

of apprehension,

I chase back into your arms,

& there my mind does its full extensions.

You dance with me in a way that is

carefree,

a perfect waltz,

full of such levity.

We smile,

bow out gracefully,

& happily say, "Thank you for having me."

A kiss goodbye,

& a touch farewell,

& as I walk away my heart begins

to swell--

I break out into a dance all my own,

Your ballerina,

happily dancing alone.

She leaps & spins,

& loves herself,

because out of all who could've loved her,

it was you, & nobody else.

Truly.

Samantha Weldon 11:37am

"Fire, burning on desire"`

10-12-11 11:25am

Funny how what starts as a

goodnight kiss

turns out to be the ultimate bliss.

As my heart skips multiple beats,

your lips steady me,

& set it to the tempo of the

metronome within your chest,

steadily increasing with my hands

caressing your skin beneath my

fingertips, like you are my own

personal piano to perform

Moonlight sonatas & enchanting

lullabies sung by my tongue

between your lips,

finding the rhythm between

our hips,

& our voices start piano on our lips,

until all I want to hear

is the sheer crescendo of my pleasing you,

my dear.

& As the space closes between you and me,

in our veins there burns a melody,

one that only you & I can sing,

in a language that is all our own--

composed of bitten lips, heavy sighs,

& fiery moans.

The composure of our connection

makes the sound of pure pleasure,

& if there were a symphony to do

it justice,

it would be our hands conducting

the chorus.

Our music melts together to create

the perfect moment,

the climax of our song making the

music of the night that everyone

desires,

the burning of our own feeding a

fire within our hearts--

Passion.

The heat of our hearts

burns through our chests even

as the embers fade to the

everglow within our minds,

& sparks fly forth from

saturated pharomones

that burn at the real goodnight kiss,

& set us free from the worries

of the world to drift into

the most harmonious sleep we've

ever experienced,

our dreaming minds providing the

continuity of our symphony,

then simply ending with the sweetest

"Good Morning."

Samantha Weldon 11:56am

"All my loving, I will send to you"

10-3-11 11:15am

It's a sad thing

when all I want is to make you

smile.

because I know you're having a

hard time.

My heart is breaking as yours is aching

from the stress upon your shoulders--

all I want is to alleviate your pain,

to be the rainbow after the rain.

The storms inside your mind are raging--

each new responsibility resounding like

thunder in your ears--

So loud that you can't hear me saying,

"I'm here, baby."

As I'm sinking into the feeling that I

was just your something that never meant

anything,

my eyes still long to see yours,

smiling back at me.

I want to be the one thing that means everything,

& be everything you could ever need.

Let me be the vent for your mystery.

Virgo & Pisces.

You & me.

My devotion to you is written in the stars,

& yours to me.

The constellations spell out our story as one

that will make others evergreen with envy.

But again I feel as your light fades,

so does my vision.

And this time its not just those

dreamy, saturated street lamps of downtown

beneath which I became so infatuated.

The light that's fading seems to be the

stars in your eyes that fill my night

skies, & to me,

that's the most precious light I've ever seen.

My eyes are blurred because of your lack of clarity,

& seeing this way fills me with the unwanted

fear that you will leave.

Take your time & ease your mind,

in time your heart will find mine--

two steps behind & missing you,

but knowing when you turn around

I'll be kissing you.

Samantha Weldon 11:33am