WANDERLUST

12:04AM 03-05-12

This pavement feels like home to me,

because my eyes are seeing such beautiful things with beautiful sounds to accompany.

& I love how these birds sing--

its as if they sing explicitly to me,

yet their song is theirs exclusively.

This cool march air fills my body,

with their songs they sing so effortlessly,

it creates a feather that carries me to a place where the winter can't find me.

My summer skin soaks in

every ounce of their summer sound.

& my heart is the sun;

Its heat burns so fierce for you,

my only one.

My sultry summer sun hangs amongst the blue skies that I found in your eyes,

& in those skies I have wings that lift me to the place where the winter can't find you and me.

The cool spring breeze makes me long for warmer days,

sweet kisses,

& your touch on my skin.

It's just enough to chill me down to my heart & makes me wonder,

"where do I even start"

when it comes to the thought that you might really love me,

there's only one feeling & that is

lucky.

I have no need for the feather that once carried me,

because now,

in your arms--

my heart rate sends me flying, into your blue sky eyes where all I feel is love,

& everything I didn't know I'd need.

I love you.

with everything,

more than I could ever be,

& more than I could even describe.

Because when you feel like you're flying,

your thoughts get scattered, & all I really am is flattered.

I'm sick of rhyming,

this is going in circles.

SAJDSFLKANDSFLKJ WELFDFJLSJF 12:19AM

02:27:12 11:18AM

I'm wearing your baseball tee to class today.

It still smells like you.

I believe that I'm reminded of you in the most bittersweet ways like last night--

Jon was "playing" me like a drum, & I remembered the time you had Taylor pick an instrument for you to "play" on me.

I even smiled about it while I laid next to him.

I miss the good days--but not as much as I love these days,

& I can't thank you enough for that.

Thank GOD you let me go.

Thank GOD you forgot me.

Because if you hadn't, I wouldn't have this sweet love that I have now...even though ours was like a fairytale. We were just stupid kids.

Stupid kids in love.

& honestly smelling your scent after forgetting it for so long is nothing but absolutely sickening.

Your sweet smell sticks to my skin like the sun in the sky

it fills my breath & I remember that swoon I used to coast on between kisses & giggles we shared.

I remember waking up next to you at dawn on Petit Jean Mountain,

& walking through the streetlights of downtown.

The "before-I-die" Wall,

the sheets,

the best nights,

& the worst.

I will never forget when you broke down because you almost gave me up.

Those precious tears you shed on my chest behind the dorm where we ran through the sprinklers the night we met.

Where you became my Prince Charming in a beanie & bare-feet.

I miss you, but I don't miss him.

There's so much to what we were and yet so little.

You will always be in my heart, Jared, & even though I'm probably never in your thoughts,

I'm glad I was.

I'm glad I was your girl,

if only for a little while.

You taught me a great deal about myself,

& I know one thing,

I will always love you,

if for nothing but the nostalgia of sweet August Air rushing through our lungs on the first night & becoming stronger on the last.

Forever my Never.

Samantha Weldon 11:48AM