An Explanation

These posts are entries from my Moleskine Notebook, where my brain gets spilled a few times a day. I don't plan on posting every single entry, just things I feel like posting. These are uncensored, and very personal. There is a reason this blog is by invite only. Read at your own risk ;)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

"All my loving, I will send to you"

10-3-11 11:15am

It's a sad thing
when all I want is to make you
smile.
because I know you're having a
hard time.
My heart is breaking as yours is aching
from the stress upon your shoulders--
all I want is to alleviate your pain,
to be the rainbow after the rain.

The storms inside your mind are raging--
each new responsibility resounding like
thunder in your ears--
So loud that you can't hear me saying,
"I'm here, baby."

As I'm sinking into the feeling that I
was just your something that never meant
anything,
my eyes still long to see yours,
smiling back at me.

I want to be the one thing that means everything,
& be everything you could ever need.
Let me be the vent for your mystery.
Virgo & Pisces.
You & me.

My devotion to you is written in the stars,
& yours to me.
The constellations spell out our story as one
that will make others evergreen with envy.

But again I feel as your light fades,
so does my vision.
And this time its not just those
dreamy, saturated street lamps of downtown
beneath which I became so infatuated.
The light that's fading seems to be the
stars in your eyes that fill my night
skies, & to me,
that's the most precious light I've ever seen.

My eyes are blurred because of your lack of clarity,
& seeing this way fills me with the unwanted
fear that you will leave.

Take your time & ease your mind,
in time your heart will find mine--
two steps behind & missing you,
but knowing when you turn around
I'll be kissing you.

Samantha Weldon 11:33am

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